Falling in and out of Love, with yourself...

Often, we define ourselves based on an idea of who we'd like to be rather than who we really are. And, when we search for this person we believe ourselves to be, we sometimes lose ourselves completely. Perhaps our approach to understanding who we are needs to be supplemented with an understanding of what we want from life. Just maybe, this will help us arrive at a better conclusion about the purpose of our existence.

Like most other posts on Roam, Rest, and Reflect; this post also looks into our (or my) relentless search for meaning, but alongside endless attempts to try and like oneself; at least occasionally. Attaching too much importance to ourselves may be one reason for our inability to do so but the other extreme isn't likely to hold us in better stead. Life is nothing but a game of balance.

I've been through a few heartbreaks, and each led me to feel insignificant, undervalued, and incapable of anything in life. In other words, each time I encountered my broken heart, I hated myself for a while. There's nothing extraordinary about what I've been through, it's a fairly standard experience to have had, and millions of others have felt the same if not worse. But like all of those others, I too feel that my experience changed me. Whether wholly or partially, only time will tell!

Not too long ago, I stuck the broken pieces of myself back together and got on with working towards what I wanted from life. But it didn't take me long to realise that I carry the weight of the heartbreak as baggage and, it's possible that I let this baggage define what I believe and also how I act and feel. However, this isn't something I'll openly admit to if you happen to ask.

We all tend to live behind a facade of confidence, sanctioned by the society we live in. And, while we may appear to love ourselves, you might only need to brush against the facade, for everything to quickly unravel. So let's try to accept that we need to 'quietly' break down every now and then, because that's the only way we can build ourselves up again. And no matter how hard it is, let's try to restore love, reinvent ourselves and let the magic of some moments sway us and make us do something we never thought we'd do.

And while we work away to make something of our days, new exciting adventures will certainly come our way. But to really be able to value what we've got, let's make peace with a future that invariably entails falling in and out of love with ourselves. And perhaps, others too!